My life in 10 (or more) songs

Getting my life in 10 songs (or more) gives you a glimpse of how diverse my music

tastes are. Music is an absolute passion of mine. And I enjoy a variety of genres.

Hip Hop. Rock. Broadway. Pop. Rap. Native American. Celtic. Country. 

Old style hymns and modern worship. Even some metal.

To narrow down a list that I would call the soundtrack of my life is not easy.

Concerts, musicals, oh my!

I think about all of the concerts I’ve taken in over the years.

Alabama. Clint Black. Garth Brooks. Sawyer Brown. Charlie Daniels.

New Kids on The Block. Vanilla Ice. 

TobyMac. Newsboys (with and without Peter Furler). Manifest. Skillet.

The musicals…Phantom of the Opera, Les Miserable, Hairspray.

By no means an exhaustive list. I could easily list two dozen more acts.

So you see my problem, right? How do I pick just a handful of songs to represent my soundtrack?

I thought about the artists as well as favorite songs that really feel like they define parts of me.

My life in 10 songs

My top 10 (or more) in no particular order…other than how I remembered them.

A portion of my life’s soundtrack.

I Love a Rainy Night” by Eddie Rabbitt – country was my upbringing and this song always made me smile and dance.

Some Girls Do” by Sawyer Brown – My absolute favorite country band ever! So hard to choose only 1 of their songs, but this particular one was an anthem to my teenage years. I followed them from when they were on Star Search… have been to dozens of their concerts, and I was super excited when I found out that lead singer Mark Miller is the producer for one of my favorite Christian bands, Casting Crowns.

That’s My Job” by Conway Twitty – My father was a huge Conway Twitty fan and I cannot listen to the song without crying. I lost my father when I was just 25. And this song epitomizes the kind of man my Daddy was.

I Cross My Heart” by George Strait – My wedding song. In honor and memory of my brother-in-law who died by suicide the year I got married. The day before my birthday that year in fact. Sometimes I listen to this with fondness. Sometimes I just can’t.

Jesus Freak” by dcTalk – My introduction to Christian rap. And every 90s Christian kids’ battle cry. It felt a bit rebellious, and yet pointed straight to the Savior.

Gone”, “Made to Love”, “Burn for You”, “Till the Day I Die”, “Move (Keep Walkin’) – OK, I know this is more than one song for the century but I am a huge, HUGE TobyMac fan!! I love the rhythm of his music, the diversity both and has a band physically as well as in the instruments utilized, and most importantly the words. I’ve been to dozens of his shows, Jesus freak cruise, and have every CD he’s ever made. His heart for God makes his music come alive.

Phantom of the Opera” by Sarah Brightman & Michael Crawford – My favorite Broadway musical. My senior prom song. We were drama and chorus geeks, what can I say?

He’s Alive” by Dolly Parton – In my opinion one of the best worship songs ever written or sung. It absolutely gives me chills every single time. And every time I hear it I am reminded of the great sacrifice made and the love the Father has for me.

Monster” by Skillet – Skillet my favorite Christian rock band. This song resonates as I often struggle with keeping the ugliness of my humanity at bay when I feel hurt or wronged. It lets me know I’m not the only one and that helps me feel more normal.

Cry for You”, “Welcome to America”, “ Good, Bad, Ugly”, “Tell the World” – Okay, again I couldn’t narrow it to just one for this artist. Lecrae is a phenomenal rapper with a heart for the Lord and for marginalized people. And he isn’t afraid to talk (or sing) about it. He’s bold yet humble…like I hope to be.

So there you have it. Songs that resonate with who I am and seasons of my life that defined me.

What does your life sound like?

Anxiety and God

Anxiety and God. This topic is one I’m trying to get more comfortable talking about. I’m learning how to define it in my life and how to normalize it for those around me.

And I’m learning how to cope with it.

I used to think that people who dealt with this particular issue just needed to get over it. Perhaps they needed to pray harder. I didn’t feel God and anxiety belonged together.

That changed when what I was not able to understand in others, began to happen to me.

Anxiety.

Though mine was triggered via a traumatic event, looking back over my younger years, I can see traces of it throughout my life. My introvert self has always been an anxious sort.

Anxiety’s Effects

Social anxiety disorder and generalized anxiety are the two types I deal with. It’s like being an introvert on steroids.

Add these to a list of other chronic illness issues and life can feel really overwhelming some days.

Just getting dressed and getting out the door can feel like an insurmountable task.

Two choices emerge here. Let anxiety defeat me and keep building walls. Or let my God help me defeat it!

God’s Power In Us

We must remember that the power of the Holy Spirit, the very power that raised Jesus from the grave…LIVES IN US!

No matter how hard the day gets, I know that He is able. His word stands. His promises are true.

And that is my landing place. The safest space I know.

Anxiety and God

Scripture To Beat Anxiety

Here are some of my go-to verses when the anxiety tries to displace the light:

“Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time: Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.” ( 1 Peter 5:6-7 KJV)

Don’t worry about anything, but in everything, through prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God.” (Philippians 4:6 HCSB)

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not rely on your own understanding; think about Him in all your ways, and He will guide you on the right paths.” (Proverbs 3: 5-6 HCSB)

“But You, Lord, are a shield around me, my glory, and the One who lifts up my head. I cry aloud to the Lord, and He answers me from His holy mountain.Selah” ( Psalm 3: 3-4 HCSB)

“I will both lie down and sleep in peace, for You alone, Lord, make me live in safety.” ( Psalm 4:8 HCSB)

Standing in the shadow of the cross, my world shines brighter.

Yours can too.

What is Ammie’s Heart all about?

Ammie’s Heart was born out of my original blog name, Everyday Confessions.

Truth be told, I wanted to keep the original, however, since I have been late to adopt many blog

best practices, I missed the boat on getting the domain for it.

So, I began to think about what it is I wanted to convey and share with my sisters in Christ. 

What was the purpose in my writing?

And it is simply to share my heart.

To provide hope for those hurting in seasons I myself have walked through.

To give encouragement and tips for holding on to the Lord when you want to let go.

To pass on heart lessons I have learned in my faith journey. Through Bible study, prayer and the

input of other Godly women (and men) in my life. Pastors, counselors and mentors who have

held me up and held me accountable.

I want this to be a community where my heart connects with yours through our Savior.

I pray you will join me! I promise we will have fun!

This is me…a quick look at who I am

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I am passionate and flawed. I am opinionated and empathetic. I am sensitive and yet I can be

hard-hearted at times. I am creative, yet not.

Like many of you, I am complicated.

I am Ammie Black. Wife. Fur-mom. Child of the King. Daughter. Sister. Friend. Co-worker.

Co-laborer for Christ.

I enjoy being outdoors, especially if I get to be on or near a body of water. I find water immensely

peaceful.

BUT, I also love being inside, curled up with a good book (usually non-fiction) and just read and

read and read all day.

I really love to cook, especially around the holidays. I enjoy pleasing people with food. And I love

the way it reminds me of family get-togethers when I was a kid.

I like to exercise. I enjoy Zumba, but my knees don’t so I had to stop. Working on finding

workouts that work for me now in this season.

Don’t ask me to draw anything, but I am very creative when it comes to putting together flower

arrangements, decorating for the holidays, creating graphics and cards and coloring books

(coming soon to the blog!) and I’m a creative writer.  I have long enjoyed writing poetry and

songs. I love sharing stories in those ways.

I love connecting people to Jesus.  These are some of the things I enjoy as part of my daily

walk to do that.  How about you?

What would God say about you?

Just what would God say about you? Perhaps you can tick off several characteristics, unflattering ones possibly.

“You don’t know the life I’ve led so far. I’ve wandered about as far from God as a person can go.”

Therefore, this question of what the Creator of the universe would say. Well, it is scary to you.

You are not sure at all what God would say about you. You believe there is a God, yet you are not really sure someone like you can actually call Him Savior. Father. Friend.

You are afraid you could be beyond His love.

I am here to tell you that it is not true. You could not be more wrong.

What God says about you

Can I share some things with you that I know God would say? I know because I have experienced these truths firsthand.

Psalm 139:14 confirms you are “fearfully and wonderfully made”. You are loved without conditions by the One who created you.

You have a purpose and a plan. A destiny you have yet to fulfill that is ordained by God Himself.

God says you are “the apple of His eye”  (Deuteronomy 32:10), “blessed” (Galatians 3:9), and “chosen”  (I Thessalonians 1:4).

You are no accident, nor are you the sum of your past mistakes.

He loves you to death

God brought Himself to earth to live and die for you…you are LOVED.

When you believe in the name of Jesus, you are both “redeemed and forgiven”  (Ephesians 1:7).  He gives you grace so you can live life “unafraid” (Deuteronomy 31:6). You never have to feel alone again.

God “rejoices over you with joyful songs”  (Zephaniah 3:17)!  Read that again. God SINGS over you!

How amazing is that friend?!

You have worth and value to God… so seek Him, for you will find Him faithful…He loves you so much!

He thinks you are His beloved.

And so do I.